Ponder Me This

I've come to realize that very often the one person you think you can count on more than anyone in the world somehow ends up getting more and more distant from you as time goes by. And I'm not liking that fact. And I know I keep elaborating on this same theme, but it's really something thats's been bothering me lately. It's just so hard to become distant from someone you know so much about, right down to the fact that you know they eat around the chocolate chips in cookies because they don't like chocolate but they'll chug chocolate milk like it was the water from the fountain of eternal youth. Or that they never call people, but if someone calls them they'll talk for hours. And I could go on and on, but the point is that so many years of my life were shared with this person and it's so weird to think that they just won't be there for me anymore like they used to. Unless I could maybe put in a bit more effort? Or maybe this is one of those things that I'm supposed to let pass as a natural occurence, like a natural life happening.

Strange occurence today: I felt so inexplicably in control of everything, like this incredible sense of euphoria like I could take over the world and absolutely no one could stop me. And I also felt pretty. No, beautiful, not just pretty. It was kind of cool in a slightly unsettling way.